Not The Way It Is Lyrics

                   I should write her a letter 
              I suppose I should write her a letter 
                         What the hell? 
                  What the hell will I tell her 
                   That she would want to hear 
                  But that she deserves to hear 
            And I end up protesting what she can bear 
 
                   Do I come up with a reason 
                   Or am I inventing a reason 
                  Something with so many pieces 
                That the only thing that's clear 
                If there's anything that's clear 
                Is whatever was is no longer here 
                  Wait until what I should say 
         And maybe go away, but that's not the way it is 
                  And I hope she'll understand, 
          Even though I know I may never see her again 
 
         I could hope, and I could wish and I could pray 
             But that doesn't really change a thing 
         And if I see her, I don't know if I could watch 
          And what there was turned into God knows what 
                 So, so what about that letter? 
             Not that it could make anything better 
                The fact is, I feel like a coward 
                 Pretending what happened hadn't 
         And nothing ever would, despite the fact it did 
       Could it be erased without rubbing it in her face? 
                  Wait until what I should say 
        Would maybe go away, but that's not the way it is 
                  And I hope she'll understand, 
          Even though I know I may never see her again