Gear Box Lyrics

I remember you used to pray for me 
now you turn your head away
Expectations that I never met, 
forgotten promises you never kept
I know someday there'll be a time 
when you can look me in the eye
Now I write these words just to keep it clear 
in a jaded song you won't ever hear

I never wanted your forgiveness 
you did what you had to 
I did what I could 
now we've gone
Our separate ways. 
I never found comfort in your acceptance,
If time's a healer then I'll sit and
wait for your poison words to scar.
A notebook filled with a million words 
sits quietly by my side.
Like a loaded gun with the wrong intentions 
they tell me life is pain
I forgot a long time ago, 
but everyday I'm reminded of the way
You put me down, 
the way you put me out,
the way you torched my fucking world

I never wanted your forgiveness 
you did what you had to 
I did what I could 
now we've gone
Our separate ways. 
I never found comfort in your acceptance, 
if time's a healer then I'll sit and
wait for your poison words to scar.

I don't need your lies 
don't need your promises 
don't want your open arms 
don't need your sacred ways 
and all I need is all I am today.
What was once belief has now turned to grief 
and there ain't nothin' more  that you could say
Look to myself for everything I need, 
ain't lookin' back on anything.
So you think you got me all figured out 
and you think you know what this hate is all about
Don't try to understand, 
don't try to comprehend the answer is my words.
When the world comes crashin' down all around 
and I need a quiet place to hide.
You'll find me deep inside my head 
under a tree of thought in a world of pain.
I never wanted you here 
I never needed you here 
so when you think of me 
try to understand
I never wanted your help 
I never needed your hand 
to guide me through your maze of lies
to guide me through your narrow world. 
I forgot a long time ago, 
now every day I'm reminded  
the way you put me down 
the way you put me out 
the way you torched my whole world.